Balance?

     So, I've decided something. I'm going to start to take my life day by day. Everyone always tells me to make goals and to plan ahead. Look where that has gotten me. The future really scares me. I'm not ready for it. Every time I think about my future, I break down. I think that the best thing for me right now is to just live for today. I'm not exactly living for the moment, because that leads to recklessness. All of this is one giant effort for me to find true happiness. I'm trying to find balance.