Sunday, January 30, 2011

this is so hard

i have no one.
i officially have no one.
and it's so hard to deal with.

i have no one that i can talk to about anything. and it is eating me up inside. all of my friends have turned on me. my best friend doesn't want to talk to me because i don't want to date him. he asked me "how could you have sex with me when you don't even like me?" it was like a smack in the face. it was like he was basically saying "oh hey, you're a slutt" and of course he had to pick the day that i really needed to tell him something. tell him what's been eating me alive. but now i can't. it's too hard. no one will know. i'll just let it tear me to bits.

i need to weigh myself. today my mom made me eat because my jeans actually fell off of me today ..

1 comment:

  1. Loneliness can sometimes turns into solitude. The life is changing everytime, You lose sight of your friends, and you know others persons who will be your friends.
    I wear 2 underpants under my jean and my mom believed I've gained some pounds. I haven't, though !
    I hope you'll be better.

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